I honestly do not remember the last time I posted something really personal here. Everytime I start typing and constructing words, I begin to think twice and close my laptop, do something else. I kinda felt like I didn’t need to write anything anymore, because of my incredibly hectic schedule. But here I am now- my fingers trying to keep up on what comes out of my head.

Life in all fairness was good for the past 6 months. I graduated from college, got a job in my field, spent two months in the Philippines, got back in Edmonton then moved to a new condo with my boyfriend. Not to mention gigs in and out of the city. Also, I got a St. Bernard puppy to take care of and call family.

These are things that keep me busy everyday. I am still in the process of adjusting, becoming more independent and being responsible of my own life. And so far, I am loving it. I am thankful that these things are happening right now, for I believe that we don’t really learn till we get to experience it. I feel so blessed, and I hope to reward myself soon.

Good vibes. I hope this goes the same for you guys too. :)

Here it is! My first make up vlog! What do you guys think? :)

• Decided to stay home today and finish my school work here. I figured I can’t really review in school so might as well just stay in till I go to work.

• The weather is starting to feel gloomy. It’s been raining since last week and the weekend was chilly. We still get a few sunshines on random days but mostly it’s cold. I wonder if we’re gonna have a long winter this year.

• A few more months til my sister and I’s flight to Philippines is approaching and we’re very very excited. This will be one of the most epic vacations we will ever have because this is our first out of the country trip together. I mean, Philippines will always be our home but right now we consider it as a place to chill, party, relax and enjoy ourselves. My sister deserves it; she’s been working so hard for this vacation to happen. I’ve been cooking lots of plans for us when we get there since it’s my sister’s first time alone (without parents) in Manila. And of course, it will be our first time in Boracay and we’re very excited :)

• I can’t believe I’m really graduating. Finally, after so long, I get to have a diploma. I start practicum in two weeks, and I’m scared as fuck. The only thing that gets me going besides the diploma is the graduation ceremony itself and of course the grad photos. I’ve never had a graduation picture in high school, and in college when I was in UP (coz I didn’t finish) so this forthcoming grad pictorial would be very special. I just don’t know what kind of creative shot should I make. Help? :)

• I’ll be in tumblr for a few hours today, so feel free to give me a shout. Hae a good Wednesday y’all :)

"Last year lang nasa Pilipinas ako."

Quick look on my life in bullets:

• I haven’t blogged in ages! I guess I had a life lately. :))
• All updates in my blog are about food and other instagram photos I post online. It’s a shame that I don’t have enough time to update my blog when all I say in my head everytime something awesome happens is “I gotta tumblr that shit, yo,”. :))
• About the latter (food porn on instagram), I am loving being a food conoisseur! Going to lots of restaurants is one of the things I love to do and I enjoy it so much! I just can’t believe I still haven’t gone to a lot of restaurants here in Edmonton but there’s still lots of time to do that :)
• The boy and I broke up recently. We’re still not talking but I guess it’s fine this way. Time will tell when we’ll be okay and I hope someday if we crossed paths we could smile back at each other. :) I already accepted everything that has happened. It still hurts that we ended up this way but I just don’t want to prolong the agony and I don’t want to hurt him anymore. Long distance relationship is really hard, and we just had enough. It’s time for us to move on and be happy. :)
• I feel unbelievably happy with my friends around. They’ve stayed through thick and thin and I saw how we guys grew together. I just feel so glad I have them instead of a bunch of unreal ones. I’m probably certain we’ll have a blast this year! :)
• I just can’t wait for summer! <3

kisspirin:

Best Bible quote of all time (1Corinthians 13:4)

I hope everyone internalizes the meaning of this Bible verse. I’m not really a Bible person, nor a churchy yfc for that matter, but this is one thing in this Holy book I firmly believe in.

The 'N' Word

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I am Nash, 22 years of age and counting. I am a pure - blooded Filipino. I was born and raised in the Philippines for 19 years and is now living in Canada. I am a College student wanting to pursue Communication Studies. My goal is to finish my degree and come home to The Philippines to live and work there for good. I am the vocalist of the band Headcakes, a local Filipino Variety band from Edmonton. I have been singing and performing all my life, but writing is my passion ever since I was little.

This is me and my everyday life as a struggling artist. Join me as I try to search for the true meaning of my existence.

All photos are owned by Nash and Nadj Esteban unless otherwise noted. Please do not steal our photos. Thanks <3